SOUL SEARCHING

I search the world hoping to find a truth that I can call mine; the NEON truth. I search for my identity. Me writing poetry, me being able to put words to a beat, me being able to make patterns on plain white paper with this black pen, me being able to do what I am able to do; this is I, soul searching. These are the fragments of my truth and they form me, my identity; this identity I prefer to call NEON.

I have seen myself struggle with the reality that I live in, this invisible box I find myself locked in. I have struggled to fit in, to be viewed as ‘normal’ or as ‘cool’ according to society and its so-called norms. I have struggled to gain some sort of recognition among my so-called peers. I have struggled to accept my imperfections. I have done and said things just to be visible to this world.

That is not the truth I’ve been searching for.

This truth has been inside me the whole time. If this is what growing up is all about then, I clearly had taken so many wrong turns. Then again, is it not the beauty of this all? Life, love, hate, friendships, relationships and other ‘ships’ I am yet to discover.

You see, part of my truth is that I am not perfect and I did not come to seek perfection. I am here to live love life however or whatever I will make it. My truth is all but everything I am.

I do not write, draw and rap for no apparent reason. This shit counts for something, this is who and what I am. Either you are against me or with me, that is how it works right?

You see my truth does not require you to accept it or reject it.

They will insult me; drag my name in the mud or whatever. I just want to let them know that either way I cannot be ignored! With that being said, let my poetry, verse and song tell fragments of my story; the story of a shadow in the dark.